sleeping in the city that never sleeps

tonight I am back in New York.

I am in the city that never sleeps and yet I am about to go to sleep

right now there are several thoughts swimming, floating, crashing, around in my head and I just need to get them out

(currently listening to "the aviators" by Helen Jane Long)

I am frustrated

I am tired

I am confused

I am scared

I want a change

I want to live the life I feel is worth living

I want everything to be ok

I am worried about my choices

I want different options

I wish I could see what others were thinking but then again no

I want a perfect playlist to ease my mind

I want to be back at work

I want a job in a movie theater

I want a job in my field

I wish my friends the best and want them to be happy

I wish I could relive certain moments

I want to know it's not just my minds version of excuses

I want to trust

I want to have people to turn to here

I would like to be living my dream

I would like my scripts to be finished

I like my new video a lot

I wish

...

It's time to sleep and see what tomorrow brings

play the music

ease the mind

drift into the inbetween

and recharge for tomorrow

these are the wandering thoughts of a girl who wanders with her converse

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life advice from a small town girl living in the big city